Different Somehow

[Dreamer]

I know losing a child in any form is devastating, but when one loses a only child, it seems that the parents future dies with that child.

My only son and child died on June 25, 2002 from injuries that he sustained in a motorcycle accident. He was 30 and single but planning to be married as soon as the cross country trip was complete. Me and his fiancee helped him and his friend plan the trip and when they left, we went into wedding plans, which soon turned to planning a funeral.

Its been almost 8 years, and I have adapted to living without my AC, but I still don't like it. When my sisters call about new grandkids or great grandkids, its always bitter sweet, because I am never going to make those calls. I try to be happy for them, but its not always easy.

AC is still with me daily, which a lot of people don't understand. I am more fortunate than most, my family hasn't forgot AC. They always call on his birthday and his angel date. I sometimes get jealous of my niece when she calls and says, "Guess what AC did/said today". I think she has more contact from him than I do. But, thats okay they were more like brother and sister than cousins.

I don't know if there is anyone else here that has lost an only child, but if there is... I have been on this walk for almost 8 years and if you are just starting that walk, its not easy but you will survive and learn to enjoy life again.

Peggy
Mom to AC
'72 - '02

[Vibailey]

I also lost my only child, my son Shane. He died on March 14, 2007 - riding his dirt bike. He was a month away from turning 17. He was my life, now I have no life... I'm just waiting to die. Whenever someone I know dies now... I get angry because its not me. I don't want to be like this but I can't help it. I miss him so much. I wish I could know, I mean REALLY KNOW, that he's ok. I'm trying so hard to have faith, but I'm so not sure of anything anymore. In a few weeks it'll be 3 years - I don't dream, I don't have any "signs" that he's around.
I joined Compassionate Friends last year - now for a couple of hours once a month I don't feel so alone.


Shanes Mom